i know there's an answer

i'm irritatingly mellow right now. i'm too calm for two days before GCSES, and whilst everyone around me is completely freaking out for various reason i'm just patronisingly "patting them on the head". but i just feel like everyone is too unappreciative.

sure you're in trouble or sure you have gcses BUT AT LEAST YOU'RE ALIVE AND HAVE A WHOLE WORLD (not to mention a whole universe) out there. there's so much, so much, out there and people waste their lives feeling sorry for themselves. if you're upset go outside. play chess. read. draw. amuse yourself. create a whole world in your head. don't sit in your room and sulk like a pmsing bitch.

ok i need to clarify something, i feel eyebrows raising. being pissed off is fine, it's healthy. being SAD is fine, it's necessary. but sulking for days on end and forgetting everything because of stress or whatever is just annoying; precious time is ticking away.

that's a valuable lesson i've learn over the past year and i can honestly say i haven't been properly stressed, stroppy or 'depressed' for more than half an hour for a long time and it feels great. i really am very different from then hmm

anyway mind you, like the hypocritical bitch that i am if i get anything less than three a*s i'll be duly thrown off my pedestal and proceed to completely losing my head for a day or so. but for now, life is SWEET. i can almost taste it.